I'm about to turn 40.
The number itself doesn't bother me; I'm ok with my age.
I think what's got me down a bit is trying to chart my progress as a human that's been around for 40 years.
I'm not sure I'm evolving.
I rarely suffer from severe depression anymore.
I don't lose things much anymore.
I'm less dramatic.
Still not creating art despite ideas and opportunity.
That just doesn't look good on the whole.
Is this the stuff of middle-age crisises?
I just want to know I'm making this all count for something.